heyyyy......

My Miracle Dad

2010-01-11T09:26:00.000-08:00

I know that I’m not perfect, and I’m sure you know that to,

But it means the world to know, that I can always talk to you...

I am sure you didn’t expect all this, when you took me in to stay...

But you still loved me enough, that you did it anyway.

You always seemed so calm, when deep down you were so scared,

And no matter how serious it was, you always seemed prepared.

I know I’m lucky to have you here, after all that you've been through,

And no matter what just happened, I can always say I love you...

You always can forgive me, even when times get bad,

And I’ll love you until the day I die, because you are my miracle dad!

I CANT MAKE UP MY MIND.

2009-09-10T09:13:00.000-07:00

Tell me one more time to reach your expectations
I’m so tired of these accusations
You yell at me for every wrong thing I do
The fact that I can’t do anything right hasn’t hit you

As I sit in study hall
I wonder if it’s worth it at all
Around my friends I’m always smiling
But when I’m alone my happiness is always dying

I wonder if it hurts
Is living really worse?
I’ve thought about it for so long
But life isn’t some silly love song

There’s so much more
But my mind won’t float to shore
It’s a permanent solution
But I’m tired of this lame illusion

all i am.

2009-09-10T09:11:00.001-07:00

Tired of feeling sick,
And sick of being ignored.
I'll open up my wrists,
And show you what's in store.

I'm tired of clinging to life,
It's hanging in the balance.
All I am on this earth,
Is just one big annoyance.

me n God...

2009-07-03T07:54:00.000-07:00

I thought my dreams were impossible,
but God said, "All things are possible."

I was lost and confused. I thought I'd never find
a solution, but God said, "I will direct your steps."

I almost gave up. I thought I couldn't do it,
but God said, "You can do all things."

I almost quit. I thought my efforts weren't worth
the trouble, but God said, "It will be worth it."

I thought I'd never make it. I thought I didn't have what it takes, but God said, "I'll supply all your needs."

I was worried. I felt trapped beneath a mountain
of despair, but God said, "Cast your worries on me."

I thought I couldn't do it, because I wasn't smart enough, but God said,
"I give you wisdom."

I suffered from guilt. I was angry at myself for what
I'd done, but God said, "I forgive you."

I disliked myself. I thought that no one loved me,
but God said, "I love you."

I wept, because I was lonely, but God said,
"I will never leave you or forsake you."

to my love....

2009-04-23T11:38:00.000-07:00

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

Earth Hour

2009-04-21T05:54:00.000-07:00

Earth Hour is a global event organized by WWF (World Wide Fund for Nature, also known as World Wildlife Fund) and is held on the last Saturday of March annually, asking households and businesses to turn off their non-essential lights and other electrical appliances for one hour to raise awareness towards the need to take action on climate change. Earth hour was conceived by WWF and The Sydney Morning Herald in 2007,when 2.2 million residents of Sydney participated by turning off all non-essential lights.Following Sydney's lead, many other cities around the world adopted the event in 2008................

LESSONS OF LIFE ........

2009-04-03T02:17:00.000-07:00

I feared being aloneuntil
I learned to likemyself.
I feared failureuntil
I realized that I only fail when I don't try.
I feared success until I realized that
I had to tryin order to be happy with myself.
I feared people's opinions until I learned that
people would have opinions about me anyway.
I feared rejection until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain until I learned that it's necessary for growth.
I feared the truth until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life until I experienced its beauty.
I feared death until I realized that it's
not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny,until I realized that
I had the power to changemy life.
I feared hate until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love until it touched my heart,
making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.
I feared ridicule until I learned howto laugh at myself.
I feared growing old until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future until I realized that life just kept getting better.
I feared the past until I realized that it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the lightuntil I learned that
the truth would give me strength.
I feared change,until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly
had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly.

me

2009-02-23T07:02:00.000-08:00

dear blog..
again 2dy something is in my heart to share it with u...somthing dat even i cant share with my vry own one,somthing dat is vry much hard 4 me to keep in heart...from last few days i hv noticed those things which i hvnt seen since from my childhood..secrets of my family...thoughts of my parents. i never thoght life could become so hard 4 me vry soon. never hav imagined that i hv to paid with my tears the love n care of my family. if it was so then Allah y u hv gvn me all dat. some1 once said to me dat wn der z all dark in heart,a bright ray come from somwhere but wenever i strt beleiving in dat the ray which comes makes me realise dat its light z also not for so long....the words i hv listend hv made me so hard to live up..wenevr i manage to forget everything,right after sometime i was caught by the dark arms of surprises.....dun knw how could i come out of it, my heart z lost so much in all dat which i never hv thoght of..... i was thinking y am not like wat i was in past, n am so stupid dat i thought its maybe coz i grown up....but its not wat i thought. it were the words of my family...the reality of our family,a vry loving family but still like a death cave for me.. wenever i plan to go throgh somwhere,dat way closes all its doors for me....y its always me?y its jst me ? if there is always somthing good behind bad,wen would it happen? wat will b it? .............

a cute butterfly story.....(heart touching)

2008-12-15T09:58:00.001-08:00

Many, many years ago when the Earth was still quite new, there was a beautiful butterfly who lost her mate in battle. To show her grief, she took off her beautiful wings and wrapped herself in a drab cocoon. In her sadness, she could not eat and she could not sleep and her relatives kept coming to her lodge to see if she was okay.
Of course she wasn't, but she didn't want to be a burden on her people so she packed up her wings and her medicine bundle and took off on a long journey. She wandered about for many days and months, until finally she had gone all around the world.
On her journey she kept her eyes downcast and stepped on each stone she came to as she crossed fields and creeks and streams. Finally, one day as she was looking down, she happened to notice the stone beneath her feet, and it was so beautiful that it healed her sorrow.
She then cast aside her cocoon, shook the dust from her wings, and donned them once more. She was so happy she began to dance to give thanks for another chance to begin her life anew. Then she went home and told The People about her long journey and how it had healed her.

....my mind

2008-12-02T10:15:00.000-08:00

so much words are there sometimes in our heart which v cant say out n so much thoughts in our mind which v cant settle out,though v knw one day everything will gona b ok but still v think of all such things without noticing dat by waiting v can't move on...wat z all dat wen if it happens to us....no matter how deep v think of anything but wat wen dat thing comes to u and u even wont b able to touch it.........although der r many situations in our lifes but somtimes a litle word can hurt u even more then an attack....it was all happened to me not once but many times..somtimes i jst tried to kick off dis life n run away but then an angel let me realise my value here.....so wat if i wont get those things which i want,so wat if i can't move on by this world,so wat if i cant stand with others....i have one day all those things which i need, i will b far more ahead then this world n i'll b standing on dat place where i never even dreamed of............. life z vry strange, clearly showing us the rite direction it suddenly creats a glass wall between the joys of our life n us....v even cant break dat wall because somewhere inside v afraid of being hurt but still v want to get those joys.... der r so much hidden words r left inside our heart which v never share with anyone but still v need someones shoulder to cry out 4 those words....

2008-09-16T09:02:00.000-07:00

When you're in pain,

and it seems like

no one understands;

when it has gotten exhausting

to even talk about the way

you're suffering,remember God.

Others may turn their

back on you,but He never will.

You need explain

nothing to Him.

He knows how you suffer,

and He can see what's

in your heart.Lean on Him.

Put your faith in Him.

He promised that He would

never forsake you

,and you can depend on Him.

across the miles

2008-09-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

Across the Miles...

Every day I think about you,
and I yearn to see your smile.

Though I miss you terribly
I can feel your love,across the miles.

Promise me that our love
will never fade or disappear,
but will always shine as bright as the sun.
From the bottom of my heart,
I swear that
You'll always be
the only one!

congrats!!!

2008-08-25T07:13:00.001-07:00

today its 25 august 2008 n it was my result day...hv waited alot for this day bcoz i knw hw i cross dat pprs time along with my freinds n fellows but today after geting mashallah a gud score am vry much satisfied n happy...am realy vry thankful to ALLAH who helped me in acheiving my score n also thankful to my freinds who suported me alot....without there help maybe i could left with any paper....it was a gr8 time. today am not jst happy bcoz of wat i hv got but also of wat my freinds hv got too bcoz i knw how much i spoiled my mind on them.hahahahha......jokes apart. in any sort of situation i guided them n they too...maybe its my one of the best result i ever have n dats y am not finding out words to express my happiness...but its for true dat if u work hard n no matter how u hav done ur work, allah helps u....

so lonely....

2008-08-13T11:07:00.000-07:00

I get so lonely
waiting to hear from you.
Would you please drop me aline
and make my day?
I've been lying here,
thinking about you all day.
I miss you,and I've felt so empty
since you went away.
Only you can make the
sunshine return
and send the darkness
on its way.

jst 4 my mind blowing freinds !!!

2008-07-28T01:05:00.000-07:00

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,

or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will

search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,

nor the future with its untold stories.

But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.

I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;

Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;

I can only support you, encourage you,

and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,

from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,

But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,

room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces

and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.

I can only love you and be your friend.

pR33tY g!RL

2008-06-30T10:57:00.000-07:00

Pretty girl, who is to blame
Frightened girl, they don’t know her name
Saddened girl, who cries at night
Distant girl, who’s out of sight
Fairytale girl, who don’t exist
Silent girl, without a name
Ignored girl, who’s filled with shame
Faking girl, with plastic smiles
Freakish girl, from a thousand miles
Emotionless girl, cant feel much pain
Darkened girl, who brings the rain
Crying girl, tears start to flood
Psychotic girl, who drains her blood
Hated girl, who no one loves
a weak girl, who’s no longer though
Angry girl, there is no cure
Happy girl, she is no more
Hidden girl, she covers her scars
Prisoned girl, lived behind her life’s bars
Crazy girl, who bleeds so much
Lonely girl, who’s out of touch
Stupid girl, who no one likes
Beaten girl, who always fights
Pretty girl, don’t give up now
Scared girl, don’t be afraid
Distant girl, don’t go away
Worried girl, it'll be alright
Stoner girl, tonight she'll smoke her sorrow
Furious girl, who has no more faith
Depressed girl, who cries and aches
Fallen girl, with broken wings
Disturbed girl, fell off the swing
Ugly girl, not like before
Beautiful girl, she is no more
Pretty girl, who made her life end........

.............yeah that is ME...............

my last day!!!

2008-06-16T06:47:00.000-07:00

A great journey of life has once again show me a pause….my another semester got over n now I will be entering into a new one….the time which waz spend waz all a memorable dream n is treasured in my heart…fun wid friends…laughing out on ourselves without any reason….the gossip time jst when the class starts….was such a sweet time….today was the last day before the vacations n v friends have did a lot fun….besides some of bad things happened ,we have enjoyed that precious time a lot……each and every moment brought us a new life and now once again we all are scattered for some time….in this time all of us have different thoughts and plans….but still we all are waiting for the day when we all get reunite again after 3 months and have the same chill program…..

2008-05-05T03:59:00.000-07:00

REAL BEAUTY

Do not judge by color of eyes
but judge by innocence in the eyes
Do not judge by lipstick worn on the lips
but judge by truth spoken by lips
Do not judge by complexion of hands
but judge by workdone by those hands
Do not judge by golden anklet worn on feet
but judge by the brave steps taken by the feet
Do not judge by height,weigh or any physical part
but judge by purity of heart!

2008-04-28T23:27:00.000-07:00

Good Wishes...

I thought you could use some beauty

in your life today,

so I'm sending you this greeting

to let you know that

I'mthinking about you

and sending some good wishes your way.

May your day be touched with sunshine,

your heart overflow with love,

and your soul sing with hope.

May everything in your life sparkle

with a radiance that

comes only from happiness.

with all my heart.....a true feelings....

2008-04-27T13:34:00.000-07:00

it used to be so difficult
to feel close in a relationship.
and then you came
into my life unexpectedly
and made everything better.
your warm eyes.
your soft laughter,
the way you speak,
and all the kindness
you've shown me,
touched my heart in a way
that no one else ever had
and it has been wasy to
get close toyou.
and i can't tell you
how much that means to me.
or how happy you've made me,
but i hope you know
how much i love you............

follow your dreams

2008-03-30T11:54:00.000-07:00

troubles arrives in measures,

and we stack it up real high,

until we're convinced,

we have no reason to try.

If you feel defeated,

you're absolutely wrong,

for if you follow your dream,

you could never lose for long.

Ignore the minor set-backs

that pile up and trouble you,

or you will build a mountain,

out of the stones hurled at you.

The future holds great promise,

your destiny unknown,

but God is always helping,

and you're never alone.

Soar bravely toward your goal.

Let nothing darken the way.

You can change your tomorrow,

if you seek your dream today...........

MOTHER ALWAYS LOVE YOU.....

2008-03-24T12:12:00.000-07:00

Mother is she who spends sleepless night to make you sleep
Mother is she who understands you from the very deep…

Mother is she who will laugh and cry along with you….
Mother is she who teaches how to drink, eat and how to chew…

Mother is she who scolds you for your good
Mother is she who will support you in any mood…

Mother is she who accepts you in any situation…
Mother is she who motivates you for your every little creation…

Mother is she who gives you blessings at every step…
Mother is she who is always worried for your fate…

Mother is she who can catch you if at any moment you lie…
Mother is she who never wants to see her baby cry….

Mother is she who is different from all other…
Mother is she who is never comparable to any other…

love you mom 4 everything dat u did 4 me....n making me feel so proud to be your child.thankx 4 shine in my life....

deep thought....

2008-03-09T13:14:00.000-07:00

to knw urself is somtimes da most difficult thing in dis entire universe.....u think dat u have known alot abt urself but somwhere inside u der is a life living in a million of shades over it.....u can't interact wid ur dat life....its true...4 u ,4 me n 4 evy1 around us.life z too short 4 happiness n too long for sorrows but its all up 2 us how can v lead it....
many little things means so much 2 us dat v start accepting them as our needs n later on wen those things hv der end v dun want to let them go...its just because of dat soft corner in our heart.... but wen it comes 2 ppl v luv n v care, it gets completly unbearable. those moments dat v hav passed with our family n our dear ones become so worthwile.
but somtimes v strt living in our inner world n start running after our dreams which is more then useless..... coz right after our dreams is the nightmare of reality. somtimes v strt expecting a little more from others without thinking abt how much v r returning 2 them.... v always need some1 to b with us but in this search v leave our own soul somwhere alone....
v dun knw hw much far v go in the battel of life but v always have to make sure dat wenever v go.....where ever v go..... v should not forget dat dis world is a tunnel of terror which seems so beautifull 4m outside but is full of hardships inside.the one who just enters could pas the whole tunnel with his own will.....beacuse no1 will b der to hold u....its just u all alone...

2008-03-05T10:21:00.000-08:00

SOME WORDS ....DAT SILENTLY SAYS ALOT OF THINGS

never pray 4 an easier life......pray 2 be a stronger person,
never pray 4 tasks equal to ur power....but 4 power equal to conquor ur tasks...

love n death are two uninvited guests.when they come nobody knows,,but both have similar effects,,one takes teh heart n other takes its beats...

anyone can catch ur eye,,,but it takes someone special to catch ur heart....

"the ultimate measure of luv z not wen both the people like each other...it's wen 1 ignores and the other continue loving till the end...."

if some1 thows stone towards u..throw love towards him....but if some1 throws love towards u..then sit 4 a while and think coz luv may hurt u more then a stone...

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lets take a strt...

2008-03-04T12:22:00.000-08:00

well its a try 4 me..... lets c how much far i can go in it.....al da best 2 me.