me

dear blog..
again 2dy something is in my heart to share it with u...somthing dat even i cant share with my vry own one,somthing dat is vry much hard 4 me to keep in heart...from last few days i hv noticed those things which i hvnt seen since from my childhood..secrets of my family...thoughts of my parents. i never thoght life could become so hard 4 me vry soon. never hav imagined that i hv to paid with my tears the love n care of my family. if it was so then Allah y u hv gvn me all dat. some1 once said to me dat wn der z all dark in heart,a bright ray come from somwhere but wenever i strt beleiving in dat the ray which comes makes me realise dat its light z also not for so long....the words i hv listend hv made me so hard to live up..wenevr i manage to forget everything,right after sometime i was caught by the dark arms of surprises.....dun knw how could i come out of it, my heart z lost so much in all dat which i never hv thoght of..... i was thinking y am not like wat i was in past, n am so stupid dat i thought its maybe coz i grown up....but its not wat i thought. it were the words of my family...the reality of our family,a vry loving family but still like a death cave for me.. wenever i plan to go throgh somwhere,dat way closes all its doors for me....y its always me?y its jst me ? if there is always somthing good behind bad,wen would it happen? wat will b it? .............